And he passed not from emotion to form, but from thought to chaos.
But it is not thought that fascinated him, but rather the processes by which thought moves. It was the machine that he loves not what the machine makes. So much, indeed, did the subtle mechanism of mind fascinated him that he despised language, or looked upon it as an incomplete instrument of expression.
“Oscar wild”
In contemporary society, we live in an algorithmic jailcell building millions of echo chambers based on perceived interests. Your personal jailcell is full of likeminded people. What good does that do when the beauty of life is to embrace people with different thoughts and qualities.
There is no growth in constant repetition of one thought. There is no greater wisdom to be found than when you can ask questions with no prejudice. I live in the space of questions where I can find comfort and freedom with not being beholden or constricted by an answer. In my paintings, I find my layers mimic the act of tabs and windows opening on a screen, a lot of information noise and disturbance. The layers cover one another, they exist together, disturb each other until they create an ambiance. I work one layer at a time.
I am not looking for what will be the final painting. I am interested in the path. The path is what I want to immerse myself in, one step and then another, that’s all I can do, the rest is not up to me. It will become something;
I don’t know what and that’s the fun in it. It’s a way of thinking, maybe a meditation, letting your thought arrive, not fitting them, any of them, getting then out and moving on to the next one. I paint in my house while I take care of my child, it’s a fast and active process where I am disturbed every 5 or 10 minutes. I use acrylic paint because it dries fast, giving me the freedom to always start fresh after every disturbance.
My son’s world (he is almost 2) is affecting the objects that I paint and the colors I use. However, I must confect that the objects in then self are usually less important for me. It’s never about one object but always about the relationship they will form together. I once heard that the freest person is the one that has space within himself for all his contradiction. I want to be free that way and I want to paint that way. To have space in one canvas for contradiction and different relationships between objects and colors. I want to embrace the disturbance, the noise, the research. I want to invest time in something. As Antoine de Saint-Exupery said beautifully it’s the time you spend on something that gives it its importance.
I paint, it’s a slow medium, in a society where we are always looking to go faster, I want to go slow, to invest time in every color and object. While I paint, I learn. I’m always listening to a podcast or a documentary on various subject. I can always see how the podcast I was listening to has affected the painting. I see it reflecting in the final ambiance of the painting. I am award that I probably will be the only person to see the connection between the subject of the podcast and the painting.
I create a link between the two with the help of the title of the work.
